Doc Menopause

I've been at my new work place for 9 months now and for some reason I still have this fear that I'm not doing well enough. I sometimes find myself wondering, "I'm really not fit for this job. I don't know what the heck I'm doing and people trust me to help them?!" Some days I go home and worry that I'll get a call from some emergency room saying my patient so-and-so was there and had some awful bad, near death thingamagig that I caused earlier today in the office. Or I'm afraid I'll miss something. "Yes, it was indeed cancer... and YOU missed it." School only teaches so much. And in my case, school taught me that if you want to learn something, you really have to find it out on your own. Screw you midwifery program director. Compared to the other PAs and the doctor, I'm the weakest link. They all are so smart. They ask the right questions and are able to think outside the box. They know the lab values of everything and what it means if its off. They know the dosages of that odd medication that I can't even pronounce. Me, I have my little peripheral brain, i.e. my handy dandy notebook where I scribble every little bit of knowledge I learn. Most of what I'm doing here at this job, I learned on the job. And I still have a ton more to learn. Ugh. You think reading and researching is over once you graduate. Nope. It's not all bad though. I liked school and I'm glad I have to continue to work my brain. It's just now after all long day of helping women with hotflashes, nightsweats, no sleep, irritability, fatigue, no sex drive, anxiety, depression, weight gain, hairloss, memory loss, PMS, heavy periods, no periods, pelvic pain, breast pain, joint pain, head pain, ear pain (you'd think people would realize we're a GYNECOLOGY practice, I know jack about your ear), I would rather log onto facebook than medline. All in all, I really feel lucky to have this job. It's more than I expected, but if I can learn a bit about your ear from watching the doc or PA, then I will be more than happy to help you. On a side note, I'm totally legit now! Lookie, I'm on the website: www.docmenopause.com Not too crazy about my photo.